Saturday nights in are something that I’ll definitely need to get used to. I finallymoved in to my new space in DC, which I’ve been anticipating insanely for the past month or so. Especially this week leading up to today, I couldn’t have asked for better going away celebrations with my family and the homies.
I tweeted the other day that something about this winter break made me realize how blessed I am to be surrounded by people who, not only bring something beneficial to my life, but support myself and my dreams unconditionally. The beautiful thing is that it’s mutual.. I wanna see everyone around me shine.
I’ve (ironically) realized that since the year started, I’ve been so conscious about determining a certain sense of “self.” Meaning: I’m beginning to really indulge in the components that make me the woman I am right now. What makes me tick? What makes me happy? What are my best qualities? What are my downfalls?It’s like this overwhelming sense of figuring out the perfect balance in my life. That’s why I’m super excited to spend these six months (working + going to school) entirely independently in my own space. Even the types of experiences and feelings that will fuel my writing and ways they haven’t before.
Have your ever experienced honest, genuine happiness? Not happiness that’s been induced by someone else, but [genuine + internal] happiness? That happiness that has you walking around smiling like a weirdo because you just feel, for a lack of a better word, good?
I think that’s how I’ve really felt since this year started. I feel optimistic. I feel hopeful. I feel thankful. I feel that more than anything, I’m ready. To really kick off what it is my life is supposed to become. My mind, body, and spirit is completely aligned and after a reckless and turbulent couple years I can thankfully just take a sigh of relief. Breathe in. Breathe out.
Shift your focus. That’s all it really comes down to. Honestly, this blog was the best thing that could’ve happened to me at the point in my life when I started writing on Everything Ravey. Writing does for me what your passion does for you. Intially, I was so hesitant of what people would say or think about me documenting my innermost thoughts/emotions/feelings of my life and posting them for the public. I was so afraid to let people in. One of the biggest lessons I learned in 2014 is don’t be concerned about what others feel about anything in your life. What other people think of you is none of your business.
Take control of your own life and forget the critics. People love to talk anyways, give them something good to discuss. Nooooooow, let’s get this money.