“Been on a natural high for awhile now ’cause I let go of all the fuck shit.” – @RAVIEB
I’ve kind of been in my own world these past couple weeks and I can honestly say that I’ve experienced a sudden wave of unbelievably good vibes. I wrote previously about how my past few years prior to turning 21 were overall just kind of.. blah. For lack of a better word. I continue to receive countless blessings this year and I can honestly channel my gratitude towards this blog. Nothing but positivity stems from it.
I always say Kanye’s “All Falls Down” applied, and still applies in some ways, to my life in a alarmingly familar way. (not only the, single black female addicted to retail part.)
Man I promise, she’s so self conscious
She has no idea what she’s doing in college
That major that she majored in don’t make no money
But she won’t drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Now, tell me that ain’t insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like fuck it, I’ll just stay down herre..
I was in spot where I definitely panicked. Thinking to myself: “I’m about to be 21.. what the F am I about to do now?” I’m super indecisive, but also exptremely impulsive.. which is probably the worst combination. I’m also always all over the place with my thoughts. 24/7. At any point in the day, I have about a million and 1 things on my mind.
I was pretty clueless my first two years of school. Ultimately knowing I wanted to write as a career, mainly as a journalist. Even that was way too broad! Journalism, both broadcasting and digital, is such a competitive field and to be 100% real with you guys, I was low-key soooo intimidated and overwhelmed by it all. Mainly thinking of the magnitude of people that are so much more qualified for these particular positions and careers. Pity party, woe is me typa shit.
Scratch the whole mindset. You have a dream? Protect and go get it. If it’s something you love, someone will notice your passion and provide you with the opportunity you never thought you’d get. I’m tellin’ ya’ll, prayers go up and blessings come down. Every. Single. Time.
Working on eliminating all things toxic is still not entirely completed on my todo list but its significant to acknowledge the fact that small alterations daily add up to big changes overall!