The past 48 hours have been such a wave of emotions and anxiety to be totally honest. I think when people find themselves in uncompromising situations it’s significant to spend time to reflect. Reflection, I think, is one of the most powerful tools when it comes to personal growth.
While it’s not necessarily good to keep things bottled up, I’ve found that in most situations, good and bad, one is just better off keeping to themselves. Sure, it’s beneficial to get outside opinions, but it’s crucial to be able to use solitude as a tool to heal, grow, learn, and understand. As I’ve mentioned countless times before, nobody got me like I got me.
I’m just in one of those moods where I don’t want to be bothered by anyone or anything. I literally put my phone on
do not disturb and I’ve locked myself in my room watching Netflix for hours on end. I finally watched Beyond The Lights starring Gugu Mbatha-Raw and Nate Parker. Let me just acknowledge that fact that very few movies have the ability to make me cry. Beyond The Lights struck a cord for some reason and ya girl was teary-eyed for the entire film. I love words and I love language. (says the blogger.. shocker.) That being said, a few phrases from the film really resonated with me. Two moments in particular had me feeling some type of way. The first is during the suicide attempt on the balcony when Kaz is convincing emotionally exhausted Noni to hold on, he exclaims: “I see you.” Not in the common, colloquial sense of the phrase, but instead spoken from an angle of recognizing one’s self-worth.
Those three words don’t just relate to her physical being and external appearance, but more so understanding and acknowledging the under lying character, soul, and spirit that we feel can be sometimes lost in the chaos of our everyday lives. The movie displays this idea on a greater scale, seen through the eyes of both a celebrity and music phenomenon.
At one point in the film, Noni also confesses the following: “I feel like I’m suffocating in the middle of the street and no one can see me dying.” As heartbreaking as the story line may seem, I think both the writers and directors did a phenomenal job telling the unspoken truths of individuals who are struggling to be seen; way beyond the optical interpretation.
In the midst of all the bullshit that often times bombard our lives, it must be nice to know that amongst it all, somebody does see you.